1 00:01:37,839 --> 00:01:39,840 The Words... 2 00:01:40,717 --> 00:01:42,301 by me. 3 00:01:44,179 --> 00:01:45,972 Part one. 4 00:01:48,141 --> 00:01:52,061 "The old man stood in the rain." 5 00:01:54,439 --> 00:01:59,819 He watched as Rory and Dora Jansen made their way to the limo. 6 00:02:00,529 --> 00:02:03,698 "Somehow it seemed as if the raindrops missed them." 7 00:02:03,865 --> 00:02:06,283 - Thank you. - Good night. 8 00:02:41,445 --> 00:02:45,698 No, no, tell Mom not to worry. Look, we just want her to feel better, okay? 9 00:02:46,158 --> 00:02:47,199 All right? 10 00:02:47,367 --> 00:02:50,828 Yeah. No, no. She brought her camera. They're gonna take a lot of pictures. 11 00:02:50,996 --> 00:02:53,789 There's a lot of photographers there. It's an event, Dad. 12 00:02:53,957 --> 00:02:56,083 Okay, all right, we got... Yes, yes. 13 00:02:56,251 --> 00:02:58,085 - We love you too. - Love you, Chuckles. 14 00:02:58,253 --> 00:02:59,879 Bye. 15 00:03:01,506 --> 00:03:03,632 My parents are very excited. 16 00:03:03,800 --> 00:03:06,510 And they love you very much. 17 00:03:06,678 --> 00:03:08,721 Are you excited? 18 00:03:09,681 --> 00:03:12,558 Yeah, sure, it's a big night, right? 19 00:03:12,726 --> 00:03:14,685 It's a big honor. 20 00:03:16,605 --> 00:03:18,939 Baby, it's... You're just nervous. It's normal. 21 00:03:19,107 --> 00:03:21,108 I'm just a little overwhelmed, you know? 22 00:03:21,276 --> 00:03:23,569 I didn't expect any of this. 23 00:03:27,657 --> 00:03:29,492 Where are you? 24 00:03:37,125 --> 00:03:40,878 It was supposed to be a little book, you know? 25 00:03:41,296 --> 00:03:42,797 I know. 26 00:03:47,260 --> 00:03:49,762 So nice that you could make time for our little award. 27 00:03:49,930 --> 00:03:52,098 - We know you're busy. - The pleasure's all ours. 28 00:03:52,265 --> 00:03:55,559 No. Come now. Your book is fabulous. But, of course, you know that. 29 00:03:55,727 --> 00:03:57,478 You've read all the reviews. 30 00:03:58,271 --> 00:04:01,982 The Window Tears has introduced us to the one of the most exciting... 31 00:04:02,150 --> 00:04:03,859 and sensitive young writers... 32 00:04:04,027 --> 00:04:07,071 to appear on the literary horizon in a very long time. 33 00:04:07,239 --> 00:04:10,116 We are privileged to have with us here tonight... 34 00:04:10,283 --> 00:04:15,037 the winner of this year's American Fellowship of Arts and Letters Award... 35 00:04:15,205 --> 00:04:17,581 Mr. Rory Jansen. 36 00:04:34,349 --> 00:04:36,016 Thank you. 37 00:04:49,698 --> 00:04:52,867 I simply tried to set down the truth as I imagined it. 38 00:04:53,034 --> 00:04:56,412 The story of one man, his wife and child. 39 00:04:56,580 --> 00:05:01,542 I never thought a little book like this would affect so many different people. 40 00:05:01,710 --> 00:05:04,253 I only wish I had an idea for my second book. 41 00:05:06,131 --> 00:05:08,257 I don't want to take up any more of your time. 42 00:05:08,425 --> 00:05:09,633 I'll just end by saying... 43 00:05:09,801 --> 00:05:14,054 that the honor this evening is truly all mine. Thank you. 44 00:05:30,655 --> 00:05:34,617 Rory Jansen had everything he had ever dreamed of. 45 00:05:35,660 --> 00:05:39,788 But somewhere, the old man was waiting. 46 00:05:40,999 --> 00:05:46,545 And he would change everything. 47 00:05:56,890 --> 00:06:00,476 "Right after college, they moved to Brooklyn." 48 00:06:00,644 --> 00:06:03,395 They found a first floor loft in an old factory. 49 00:06:03,563 --> 00:06:07,608 It was five years before the book and the awards... 50 00:06:08,068 --> 00:06:11,528 "...but Rory already knew what his life was supposed to look like." 51 00:06:11,696 --> 00:06:13,614 So straight back there. That's it. 52 00:06:13,782 --> 00:06:15,282 - Keep going? - Like two more feet. 53 00:06:15,450 --> 00:06:17,451 - Okay, here? - Yeah. 54 00:06:17,619 --> 00:06:20,246 - Let it go. - Just let go? 55 00:06:28,255 --> 00:06:29,755 He loved her. 56 00:06:29,965 --> 00:06:31,548 Dora? 57 00:06:32,008 --> 00:06:34,468 - He loved New York. - You're gonna drop me. 58 00:06:38,181 --> 00:06:41,183 He loved fighting to make the rent. 59 00:06:41,935 --> 00:06:44,645 Fighting to make his art. 60 00:06:44,813 --> 00:06:48,816 Living like all the great writers he had idolized. 61 00:06:49,526 --> 00:06:52,945 Okay, I think we should put pictures up there. 62 00:06:53,822 --> 00:06:58,867 And I think your desk is fine where it's at over there. 63 00:07:03,623 --> 00:07:05,749 And I think we should paint the bathroom pink. 64 00:07:05,917 --> 00:07:07,543 Never. 65 00:07:10,839 --> 00:07:15,259 "A young, struggling writer fighting to make his voice heard." 66 00:07:18,013 --> 00:07:20,431 He liked cheap bottles of wine. 67 00:07:22,642 --> 00:07:24,643 - How much is it? - It's 20 dollars. 68 00:07:24,811 --> 00:07:28,272 And nothing to do with his days but wander the streets. 69 00:07:29,899 --> 00:07:32,443 It matches my eyes. What do you want me to do? 70 00:07:33,361 --> 00:07:35,946 But at night, when the rest of the city slept... 71 00:07:38,116 --> 00:07:39,908 "...he wrote." 72 00:07:44,914 --> 00:07:46,623 Thanks, babe. 73 00:07:49,794 --> 00:07:52,296 Just doing a final pass. 74 00:07:52,464 --> 00:07:53,547 And then what? 75 00:07:53,715 --> 00:07:58,302 And then I'm gonna head into an agent that Professor Waller recommended. 76 00:07:58,803 --> 00:08:00,512 And then what? 77 00:08:00,889 --> 00:08:02,806 And then we're gonna celebrate. 78 00:08:03,683 --> 00:08:05,684 But we don't have any money. 79 00:08:05,852 --> 00:08:07,853 Then we're gonna celebrate. 80 00:08:08,146 --> 00:08:10,397 Just gotta finish this. 81 00:08:13,234 --> 00:08:15,736 Babe. Babe. 82 00:08:16,321 --> 00:08:18,989 Babe. Come on, I gotta finish this. 83 00:08:19,532 --> 00:08:23,202 - Okay, I gotta finish this. - Fine. 84 00:08:24,371 --> 00:08:26,413 But you're missing out. 85 00:08:37,217 --> 00:08:38,759 Finished. 86 00:08:39,427 --> 00:08:42,179 Well, if he doesn't want to do it, he doesn't want to do it. 87 00:08:42,347 --> 00:08:44,723 Listen, I said I'll try. 88 00:08:45,767 --> 00:08:48,227 What do you mean? Of course that's my word. 89 00:08:51,272 --> 00:08:53,941 I gotta know by Wednesday, that's when I place the orders. 90 00:08:54,109 --> 00:08:56,110 - I'll call you back. Goodbye. - Working hard? 91 00:08:56,277 --> 00:08:58,195 All I do is put out fires. It never stops. 92 00:08:58,363 --> 00:09:02,241 Listen, I know you're busy, so I'm gonna come at you straight, okay? 93 00:09:02,742 --> 00:09:04,451 Let's go into my office. 94 00:09:04,786 --> 00:09:05,828 How much? 95 00:09:05,995 --> 00:09:08,455 Just enough for the next month to cover us. 96 00:09:08,623 --> 00:09:11,667 And then what? You show up again here next month? 97 00:09:11,835 --> 00:09:14,253 I got my book into an agent, says it's got potential. 98 00:09:14,421 --> 00:09:15,838 Did they give you any money? 99 00:09:16,005 --> 00:09:19,550 No, but, Dad, it doesn't work like that. It's not like your business, okay? 100 00:09:19,717 --> 00:09:22,386 It's not like you do work, you get paid for it, okay? 101 00:09:22,554 --> 00:09:27,015 - I gotta pay my dues. - No, I gotta pay your dues, right? 102 00:09:27,350 --> 00:09:30,519 Look, I wouldn't ask you if I didn't need it. 103 00:09:30,687 --> 00:09:32,729 You think I like coming down here like this? 104 00:09:32,897 --> 00:09:34,398 You think I like saying no? 105 00:09:35,942 --> 00:09:38,444 I feel like I'm hurting you more than helping you. 106 00:09:38,611 --> 00:09:40,696 You gotta take responsibility for your life. 107 00:09:40,864 --> 00:09:42,865 I've been taking responsibility for my life. 108 00:09:43,032 --> 00:09:45,325 I've had a job since I was 15. I was a busboy. 109 00:09:45,493 --> 00:09:47,202 Okay, we decided two years ago... 110 00:09:47,370 --> 00:09:49,621 I was gonna dedicate myself to being a writer. 111 00:09:49,789 --> 00:09:51,790 We had this conversation in the living room. 112 00:09:51,958 --> 00:09:54,710 - Mom was right there. She agreed... - But it's been a while. 113 00:09:54,878 --> 00:09:56,753 So maybe now this should be a hobby... 114 00:09:56,921 --> 00:09:59,047 instead of a profession until you get your feet on the ground. 115 00:09:59,215 --> 00:10:01,091 Well, thanks for the encouragement, Pop. 116 00:10:01,259 --> 00:10:03,051 - What about Dora? - What about Dora? 117 00:10:03,219 --> 00:10:05,929 Well, I mean, you got to have money before you get married. 118 00:10:07,348 --> 00:10:09,892 You know what? I'm sorry I wasted your time. 119 00:10:10,226 --> 00:10:13,687 Come here! Hey, sit down! Sit down. 120 00:10:13,855 --> 00:10:16,106 Talking about marriage...? 121 00:10:20,028 --> 00:10:21,278 What are you, 11? 122 00:10:30,955 --> 00:10:33,081 This is the last time. 123 00:10:33,416 --> 00:10:36,418 You gotta get a job, something steady, support yourself. 124 00:10:37,212 --> 00:10:39,880 That's just part of being a man. 125 00:10:42,091 --> 00:10:44,468 I'm trying to be a man, Dad. 126 00:10:46,346 --> 00:10:47,930 Another part of being a man... 127 00:10:48,431 --> 00:10:53,018 no matter how painful it might be, is accepting your own limitations. 128 00:10:55,313 --> 00:10:56,730 Come here. 129 00:11:00,485 --> 00:11:03,195 - I love you. - I love you. 130 00:11:04,614 --> 00:11:07,324 - I'm gonna pay you back, you know. - Yeah. 131 00:11:07,617 --> 00:11:10,702 Yeah. Hey, you can always work here. 132 00:11:13,039 --> 00:11:14,957 We'd kill each other. 133 00:11:15,875 --> 00:11:17,834 "He continued to write..." 134 00:11:18,002 --> 00:11:20,629 believing he had a story to tell. 135 00:11:20,797 --> 00:11:23,840 He sent his work anywhere they might publish him. 136 00:11:24,008 --> 00:11:27,928 But all he heard back was rejection, disinterest... 137 00:11:28,096 --> 00:11:30,472 or the loudest sound of all... 138 00:11:30,640 --> 00:11:32,224 silence. 139 00:11:32,392 --> 00:11:35,894 Finally, the great writer, Rory Jansen... 140 00:11:36,062 --> 00:11:39,439 was forced to take a day job. 141 00:11:39,732 --> 00:11:42,568 He found a position at one of the biggest publishing houses... 142 00:11:42,735 --> 00:11:45,529 "...in New York, hoping to make some connections." 143 00:11:45,697 --> 00:11:47,489 I made a million connections here. 144 00:11:47,657 --> 00:11:49,324 - What, you're a writer? - Yeah. 145 00:11:49,492 --> 00:11:52,494 I got all my stuff into different agents around here. 146 00:11:52,662 --> 00:11:55,330 I'm actually glad it's taking me a while to break through. 147 00:11:55,498 --> 00:11:59,376 It's given me a chance to develop my style, understand the market. 148 00:12:00,336 --> 00:12:02,671 So, what kind of stuff do you write? 149 00:12:03,590 --> 00:12:05,882 Angry young men, I guess. 150 00:12:07,010 --> 00:12:08,343 I used to be like that. 151 00:12:08,511 --> 00:12:10,053 Now I write Sci-Fi. 152 00:12:10,221 --> 00:12:12,180 You mature, you know. Just give it time. 153 00:12:19,647 --> 00:12:21,690 Are you gonna write tonight? 154 00:12:24,485 --> 00:12:28,655 I'll just stay in and watch a movie or get food or something. 155 00:12:28,948 --> 00:12:30,073 Okay. 156 00:12:30,241 --> 00:12:34,536 "Without even knowing it, they had settled into their lives." 157 00:12:35,455 --> 00:12:40,584 And on a Friday afternoon, they were married at City Hall. 158 00:12:41,669 --> 00:12:45,047 "They honeymooned in Paris." 159 00:12:54,891 --> 00:12:56,725 You ready? 160 00:13:00,188 --> 00:13:01,647 Yup. 161 00:13:04,776 --> 00:13:06,943 Two minutes, okay? 162 00:13:07,111 --> 00:13:09,738 - Just two more minutes. - No more antique shops. 163 00:13:15,703 --> 00:13:18,288 Thank you. Put that down. 164 00:13:19,332 --> 00:13:23,251 Klondike 474. Repeat 47... 165 00:13:52,407 --> 00:13:55,742 What do you think of this? It's like some... 166 00:13:56,786 --> 00:13:58,870 That's nice. 167 00:13:59,205 --> 00:14:00,706 What do you think of it? 168 00:14:00,873 --> 00:14:02,332 I think it's old. 169 00:14:02,500 --> 00:14:03,583 I think it's great. 170 00:14:03,751 --> 00:14:06,753 I feel like if we clean it up, you can use it for work. 171 00:14:06,921 --> 00:14:08,964 - Yeah? - It's classy. 172 00:14:09,507 --> 00:14:11,508 I'm gonna get it for you. 173 00:14:17,181 --> 00:14:18,265 Thank you, Mrs. Jansen. 174 00:14:25,940 --> 00:14:31,194 They returned to New York, and the honeymoon was over. 175 00:14:33,740 --> 00:14:36,032 All mail and packages go to the assistants only. 176 00:14:36,200 --> 00:14:37,784 Hey, Irene. 177 00:14:37,952 --> 00:14:40,829 "And then, with no warning at all... 178 00:14:40,997 --> 00:14:43,790 Rory got the call that he had been waiting for." 179 00:14:43,958 --> 00:14:45,751 Thank you. Okay. 180 00:14:45,918 --> 00:14:47,919 Thank you very much. All right, okay. 181 00:14:49,297 --> 00:14:53,717 The agent had a reputation for impeccable taste and discovering young literary stars. 182 00:14:53,926 --> 00:14:55,260 It's good. 183 00:14:55,428 --> 00:14:58,597 It's really good. I mean, it's a beautiful piece of writing... 184 00:14:58,765 --> 00:15:01,641 and the truth is that you should be very proud of yourself. 185 00:15:01,809 --> 00:15:04,478 Thank you very much, wow. 186 00:15:04,645 --> 00:15:07,481 - I worked very hard on it. - The work shows. 187 00:15:07,648 --> 00:15:10,442 I look at you, I can't believe how young you are. 188 00:15:11,027 --> 00:15:12,277 Well... 189 00:15:12,445 --> 00:15:16,031 I have to tell you, Rory, I just see so much truth in your work. 190 00:15:16,199 --> 00:15:18,366 I... I am... I'm so impressed. 191 00:15:18,534 --> 00:15:20,952 Wow, I can't believe this. This is... 192 00:15:22,747 --> 00:15:26,792 But unfortunately, the nature of the publishing business right now... 193 00:15:26,959 --> 00:15:29,461 at this particular time is such that I don't know... 194 00:15:29,629 --> 00:15:32,047 how to publish a book like this. 195 00:15:33,257 --> 00:15:37,719 Look, Rory, no one is gonna support a book like this. 196 00:15:37,970 --> 00:15:39,805 - Book like this? - From an unknown writer. 197 00:15:39,972 --> 00:15:41,348 There's just no market for it. 198 00:15:41,516 --> 00:15:44,518 Now, it's hard for any writer under any circumstances... 199 00:15:44,685 --> 00:15:47,854 without a track record to get published. And this book... 200 00:15:48,022 --> 00:15:49,940 I mean, it's so interior. 201 00:15:51,943 --> 00:15:53,902 Interior? What is that? 202 00:15:54,070 --> 00:15:56,446 It's artistic, it's subtle. It's... 203 00:15:57,490 --> 00:15:59,074 It's a piece of art. 204 00:15:59,242 --> 00:16:02,160 So this book, I should just shelve this and forget about it. 205 00:16:02,328 --> 00:16:04,329 I just... I spent three years working on it. 206 00:16:04,497 --> 00:16:06,414 I'm just trying to be honest with you. 207 00:16:06,582 --> 00:16:08,917 I'm just telling you the reality of the situation. 208 00:16:09,794 --> 00:16:12,003 Have patience. 209 00:16:12,797 --> 00:16:17,133 You know, I wouldn't have brought you in here if I really didn't believe in you. 210 00:16:44,537 --> 00:16:46,746 You're gonna be fine. 211 00:19:29,744 --> 00:19:32,370 So we have two weeks in September. We're planning a trip. 212 00:19:32,538 --> 00:19:35,498 We think we're gonna charter... What? We're gonna charter a boat. 213 00:19:35,666 --> 00:19:37,834 We're going to Turks but we're gonna get a boat. 214 00:19:38,002 --> 00:19:39,544 - Like a 50-footer. - Nothing crazy. 215 00:19:39,712 --> 00:19:41,963 Great, but it's the first two weeks of September. 216 00:19:42,131 --> 00:19:43,757 - It's the beginning... - Get a sub. 217 00:19:43,924 --> 00:19:45,133 You don't wanna miss this. 218 00:19:45,301 --> 00:19:47,802 - This is gonna be truly great. - It's gonna be amazing. 219 00:19:47,970 --> 00:19:50,138 - Breakfast, lunch, dinner. - You pull out fish... 220 00:19:50,306 --> 00:19:53,141 right out of the ocean, they cook them up. It's incredible. 221 00:19:53,309 --> 00:19:56,019 Snorkeling, diving. Totally different on a boat. 222 00:19:57,063 --> 00:20:00,148 "He couldn't stop thinking about that story." 223 00:20:01,525 --> 00:20:03,651 Where did it come from? 224 00:20:05,154 --> 00:20:07,238 Who had written it? 225 00:20:11,494 --> 00:20:12,660 In those words... 226 00:20:12,828 --> 00:20:15,580 he had been confronted by the embodiment of everything... 227 00:20:15,748 --> 00:20:17,665 he had ever aspired to be... 228 00:20:17,833 --> 00:20:21,377 "...and the reality of what he would never become." 229 00:20:21,545 --> 00:20:23,671 Buddy, what's going on with you, man? 230 00:20:23,839 --> 00:20:25,799 - You're 100 miles away. - We want you to go. 231 00:20:25,966 --> 00:20:27,717 Why don't you shut up? 232 00:20:33,891 --> 00:20:35,100 Rory! 233 00:20:35,267 --> 00:20:37,227 - What the hell...? - Oh, don't. Just don't. 234 00:20:37,394 --> 00:20:40,188 - Really, I can't right now. - What is the matter with you? 235 00:20:41,941 --> 00:20:43,650 I don't... 236 00:20:45,569 --> 00:20:48,363 How the fuck do you end up here? 237 00:20:49,490 --> 00:20:50,532 Rory... 238 00:20:50,699 --> 00:20:53,535 I look at my life, I look at your life, I look at his life... 239 00:20:53,702 --> 00:20:55,995 I look at my father's, I look at everybody's... 240 00:20:56,163 --> 00:20:58,832 I don't have a clue how anybody winds up where they do. 241 00:20:58,999 --> 00:21:00,917 - I don't know. - You don't have to know. 242 00:21:01,085 --> 00:21:03,419 - I don't know! - It's okay! You don't have to know. 243 00:21:03,587 --> 00:21:05,505 There's so much time, Rory. 244 00:21:05,714 --> 00:21:07,841 I'm talking about my fucking life here! 245 00:21:09,093 --> 00:21:12,137 - What about your life? - It's not right! 246 00:21:12,304 --> 00:21:13,513 Nothing's right! 247 00:21:17,685 --> 00:21:20,436 Rory, how is that supposed to make me feel? 248 00:21:22,773 --> 00:21:25,400 How is that supposed to make me feel? 249 00:21:28,154 --> 00:21:31,197 I'm not who I thought I was, okay? 250 00:21:32,074 --> 00:21:33,491 I'm not. 251 00:21:33,659 --> 00:21:36,786 And I'm terrified that I never will be. 252 00:22:02,313 --> 00:22:04,272 I'm sorry. 253 00:22:35,846 --> 00:22:37,639 It's okay. 254 00:23:54,758 --> 00:23:56,718 "He didn't know why he was doing it." 255 00:23:57,845 --> 00:24:02,015 He just wanted to feel the words pass through his fingers... 256 00:24:02,182 --> 00:24:03,891 through his mind. 257 00:24:10,649 --> 00:24:14,610 He retyped every word as it was written on those pages. 258 00:24:18,657 --> 00:24:24,704 He didn't change a period, a comma, or even correct the spelling mistakes. 259 00:25:06,872 --> 00:25:10,375 He needed to know what it felt like... 260 00:25:11,794 --> 00:25:13,669 to touch it... 261 00:25:17,883 --> 00:25:20,343 "...if only for a moment." 262 00:25:42,574 --> 00:25:44,325 Rory, can you come here? 263 00:25:44,493 --> 00:25:46,285 What's up? 264 00:25:46,453 --> 00:25:49,747 Hey. You all right? 265 00:25:50,290 --> 00:25:52,333 What's wrong, babe? 266 00:25:53,210 --> 00:25:54,335 Hey. 267 00:25:54,503 --> 00:25:56,379 Just kiss me. 268 00:26:02,511 --> 00:26:04,720 Hey, what is it? 269 00:26:06,348 --> 00:26:08,182 - Oh, my God. - What? 270 00:26:09,852 --> 00:26:10,977 - What? - Are you pregnant? 271 00:26:11,145 --> 00:26:13,438 No, no, no. I want you to listen to me. 272 00:26:14,314 --> 00:26:17,191 I was working on the computer today... 273 00:26:17,359 --> 00:26:20,445 and I swear to you I've never gone through your things before... 274 00:26:20,612 --> 00:26:22,613 but your book was on the screen... 275 00:26:22,781 --> 00:26:25,074 - and I started reading one sentence... - Oh, no. 276 00:26:25,242 --> 00:26:27,785 Then I read the second, and I couldn't put it down. 277 00:26:27,953 --> 00:26:32,623 Listen to me. You are everything you've always wanted to be. 278 00:26:34,209 --> 00:26:35,543 Dora, you don't under... 279 00:26:35,711 --> 00:26:37,879 Why would you keep this a secret from me? 280 00:26:38,046 --> 00:26:39,088 No, it's not a secret. 281 00:26:39,256 --> 00:26:43,342 These stories, they're so different from anything you've ever done before. 282 00:26:43,510 --> 00:26:45,553 It's as if you stopped hiding. 283 00:26:45,721 --> 00:26:49,474 They're fuller, they're truer, they're more honest. 284 00:26:50,601 --> 00:26:53,769 There are parts of you in this novel that I always knew were there... 285 00:26:53,937 --> 00:26:55,980 but I had never seen before. 286 00:26:57,274 --> 00:26:59,567 - I've never... - What parts? 287 00:27:01,111 --> 00:27:02,945 What parts? 288 00:27:03,363 --> 00:27:05,072 All of you. 289 00:27:07,159 --> 00:27:09,160 All of you, baby. 290 00:27:12,414 --> 00:27:14,749 This has to be seen. 291 00:27:21,673 --> 00:27:22,965 Just listen to me, okay. 292 00:27:23,133 --> 00:27:28,012 You always said that all you ever wanted to do was be a good writer. 293 00:27:28,514 --> 00:27:30,515 With this, Rory... 294 00:27:30,682 --> 00:27:33,351 you're a great writer. 295 00:27:34,728 --> 00:27:36,521 Baby... 296 00:27:37,731 --> 00:27:40,816 take it to work and show it to someone. 297 00:27:44,154 --> 00:27:46,572 And if you're not gonna do it for yourself... 298 00:27:46,740 --> 00:27:48,783 then please do it for me. 299 00:28:19,773 --> 00:28:22,733 - Sorry to bother you, Mr. Cutler. - Hey, Rory. How are you today? 300 00:28:22,901 --> 00:28:24,402 - Good. - Good. 301 00:28:24,570 --> 00:28:25,987 Do you have a minute? 302 00:28:27,239 --> 00:28:29,782 I'm kind of busy here. What can I do for you? 303 00:28:29,950 --> 00:28:34,245 I've worked here for over two years. I haven't asked anybody for anything. 304 00:28:34,705 --> 00:28:37,331 I have a feeling you're about to ask for a thing now. 305 00:28:37,499 --> 00:28:39,792 You see, there's this novel. 306 00:28:40,836 --> 00:28:44,797 And I know that you get submissions all the time and you're very busy... 307 00:28:44,965 --> 00:28:47,383 but I don't want anything other than your opinion. 308 00:28:47,551 --> 00:28:49,719 I would really appreciate it. 309 00:28:55,892 --> 00:28:58,519 Days passed. 310 00:28:58,687 --> 00:29:01,272 Weeks became months. 311 00:29:02,816 --> 00:29:07,862 And by the time autumn arrived, Rory had all but forgotten about the book. 312 00:29:09,823 --> 00:29:10,948 Rory. 313 00:29:13,076 --> 00:29:14,535 Can I help you, Mr. Cutler? 314 00:29:14,703 --> 00:29:17,622 - Come on in here for a second. - I'm in the middle of training... 315 00:29:17,789 --> 00:29:20,374 Yeah, yeah, he'll find his way back. Shut the door. 316 00:29:24,588 --> 00:29:26,672 You know what I did last night? 317 00:29:27,382 --> 00:29:32,053 On the absolute insistence of Debra, and God knows I tried to blow her off. 318 00:29:33,263 --> 00:29:35,306 I read your novel last night. 319 00:29:36,224 --> 00:29:37,308 You did? 320 00:29:38,435 --> 00:29:42,021 Have you shown this to anyone else, anyone outside the agency? 321 00:29:42,189 --> 00:29:44,148 No, no, you're the only one that's seen it. 322 00:29:44,316 --> 00:29:46,484 I mean, outside of my wife. 323 00:29:47,653 --> 00:29:48,861 What does she think? 324 00:29:49,112 --> 00:29:51,405 She was the one that insisted I show it to you. 325 00:29:51,573 --> 00:29:54,617 Well, I can't wait to meet her and thank her. 326 00:29:55,952 --> 00:30:00,915 Rory, I would very much like to represent you... 327 00:30:01,083 --> 00:30:02,291 and your work. 328 00:30:03,835 --> 00:30:05,503 You've written... 329 00:30:05,796 --> 00:30:09,173 a remarkable work of fiction. 330 00:30:14,221 --> 00:30:16,389 "There was no epiphany." 331 00:30:16,890 --> 00:30:19,934 No sign from the gods to point him in the right direction... 332 00:30:20,102 --> 00:30:23,896 like there had been in all the books that he had loved growing up. 333 00:30:25,899 --> 00:30:29,568 All he had to do was sign the contract. 334 00:30:31,446 --> 00:30:34,699 "The book was a unanimous critical and commercial success." 335 00:30:39,913 --> 00:30:42,373 Thank you. Hi. 336 00:30:43,125 --> 00:30:46,919 "He was the darling of the New York literary world." 337 00:30:47,087 --> 00:30:51,340 The winner of this year's American Fellowship of Arts and Letters Award... 338 00:30:51,508 --> 00:30:53,467 Mr. Rory Jansen. 339 00:30:57,055 --> 00:31:00,808 Let's raise a glass here to our son, the writer. 340 00:31:00,976 --> 00:31:02,977 - To Rory. - To Rory. 341 00:31:03,186 --> 00:31:07,022 "Rory Jansen had made his choice." 342 00:31:23,248 --> 00:31:26,167 "And then he met the old man." 343 00:31:27,794 --> 00:31:31,130 That's the end of part one. 344 00:31:32,883 --> 00:31:34,633 Thank you. 345 00:31:36,511 --> 00:31:37,887 Thank you for coming. 346 00:31:38,054 --> 00:31:41,140 Come along, people. Give the man some breathing room. 347 00:31:41,308 --> 00:31:42,600 It's his break, after all. 348 00:31:43,268 --> 00:31:44,977 Thank you. 349 00:31:46,980 --> 00:31:49,231 If you want to lie down or relax for a while... 350 00:31:49,399 --> 00:31:50,775 you know where the room is. 351 00:31:50,942 --> 00:31:53,527 I read that you liked the 2005 Rosé. 352 00:31:59,367 --> 00:32:03,204 Don't forget, Clayton, 30 minutes, so no time for foreplay. 353 00:32:04,831 --> 00:32:07,750 - I'm so sorry. - That's okay, I've read his books. 354 00:32:09,503 --> 00:32:11,337 So, what'd you say your name was again? 355 00:32:11,505 --> 00:32:13,464 I didn't. It's Daniella. 356 00:32:15,801 --> 00:32:16,967 That's a beautiful name. 357 00:32:17,552 --> 00:32:19,678 Can't you think of something better than that? 358 00:32:21,306 --> 00:32:23,390 Well, how about this: 359 00:32:23,558 --> 00:32:25,643 They gave me a little green room back there. 360 00:32:25,811 --> 00:32:29,563 It's got really great wine and cheese. And I won't have to sign any more books... 361 00:32:29,731 --> 00:32:33,442 and maybe I'll think of something more interesting to say. 362 00:32:33,610 --> 00:32:34,652 Wanna go? 363 00:32:34,820 --> 00:32:36,153 - Lead the way. - Come on. 364 00:32:37,739 --> 00:32:40,324 - Shut up. - I have to rest my voice. 365 00:32:40,492 --> 00:32:44,203 It gets really dry when I read, and I have a whole other section. 366 00:32:44,371 --> 00:32:45,955 - Don't bullshit me. - I'm not. 367 00:32:46,122 --> 00:32:48,624 It's okay. I already know everything about you anyway. 368 00:32:48,792 --> 00:32:50,751 Oh, really? Everything? 369 00:32:50,919 --> 00:32:52,753 Everything. 370 00:32:53,380 --> 00:32:54,547 What do you know? 371 00:32:55,131 --> 00:32:57,383 I know you hate tomatoes. 372 00:32:58,301 --> 00:33:00,302 I know... 373 00:33:00,595 --> 00:33:04,682 Miles Davis' Kind of Blue is your favorite jazz recording. 374 00:33:05,392 --> 00:33:08,561 I know you love to watch Cheers reruns. 375 00:33:08,728 --> 00:33:11,021 And I know you took Latin for seven years... 376 00:33:11,189 --> 00:33:15,651 - and cheated on every single test. - Wait a minute. How do you know that? 377 00:33:16,152 --> 00:33:18,028 Esquire, you said it yourself. 378 00:33:18,196 --> 00:33:21,198 I've got to start reading my interviews. 379 00:33:21,366 --> 00:33:22,741 So... 380 00:33:24,411 --> 00:33:26,495 what else do you know? 381 00:33:27,831 --> 00:33:31,625 I know that you've been with your wife since your freshman year of college. 382 00:33:33,044 --> 00:33:36,755 I know that you go to every single Yankees home game... 383 00:33:36,923 --> 00:33:41,176 and I know that you, Clayton Hammond, are a genius. 384 00:33:41,344 --> 00:33:43,220 - Shows how much you know. - Why's that? 385 00:33:43,388 --> 00:33:45,306 I missed two Yankee games last year. 386 00:33:45,473 --> 00:33:47,391 Oh, sorry. 387 00:33:48,685 --> 00:33:52,354 And my wife and I are... 388 00:33:54,232 --> 00:33:55,774 separated. 389 00:33:55,942 --> 00:33:59,945 I actually did know that, but you're wearing a ring. 390 00:34:01,448 --> 00:34:02,948 Yeah. 391 00:34:06,828 --> 00:34:08,787 So, Daniella... 392 00:34:08,955 --> 00:34:11,916 how did you get backstage tonight? 393 00:34:12,459 --> 00:34:16,462 I'm a grad student at Columbia, and I begged my professor for his ticket. 394 00:34:17,047 --> 00:34:19,924 I won the Elman Fellowship, just like you. 395 00:34:20,425 --> 00:34:22,217 Mr. Hammond, they're ready for you. 396 00:34:22,385 --> 00:34:25,429 Yes, Mr. Hammond, we're ready for you. 397 00:34:30,644 --> 00:34:34,855 This is the second and final selection of the evening. 398 00:34:36,024 --> 00:34:38,692 “It was a crisp and clear autumn morning. 399 00:34:38,860 --> 00:34:43,238 "The old man was dressed exactly as the day before." 400 00:34:46,993 --> 00:34:49,578 - Can I hail you a cab? - I'm gonna take the bus, thanks. 401 00:34:49,746 --> 00:34:51,455 You're welcome. 402 00:35:00,548 --> 00:35:03,175 Go to Central Park? Great. 403 00:36:00,358 --> 00:36:02,526 How you doing today? 404 00:36:02,902 --> 00:36:05,362 I'm okay. How are you? 405 00:36:07,615 --> 00:36:10,200 - You know what I mean? - Sure. 406 00:36:15,040 --> 00:36:17,416 What's that book you're reading? 407 00:36:19,461 --> 00:36:21,837 Ask the Dust, John Fante. 408 00:36:22,005 --> 00:36:25,049 Oh, how did you find him? Nobody knows him. 409 00:36:25,216 --> 00:36:26,425 You read Fante? 410 00:36:26,593 --> 00:36:28,635 Read him? I knew him. 411 00:36:30,180 --> 00:36:31,346 You knew John Fante. 412 00:36:31,514 --> 00:36:34,641 Met him in Los Angeles. 413 00:36:34,934 --> 00:36:37,394 Must have been 1958. 414 00:36:37,562 --> 00:36:39,813 He should have been someone that everybody knows. 415 00:36:39,981 --> 00:36:41,065 Yeah. 416 00:36:41,232 --> 00:36:42,399 What happened? 417 00:36:43,568 --> 00:36:45,235 Life. 418 00:36:52,118 --> 00:36:56,246 So how does it feel? 419 00:36:57,040 --> 00:36:58,832 How does what feel? 420 00:36:59,000 --> 00:37:03,504 To be somebody everybody knows? 421 00:37:03,963 --> 00:37:05,881 You know, I don't really think about it. 422 00:37:06,049 --> 00:37:08,175 Oh, come on. 423 00:37:08,343 --> 00:37:11,220 Don't bullshit an old bullshitter. 424 00:37:12,180 --> 00:37:13,889 It feels good, right? 425 00:37:15,767 --> 00:37:18,644 Feels good to have your work recognized, yeah. 426 00:37:18,812 --> 00:37:21,772 Yeah, I'm sure it does, yeah. 427 00:37:21,940 --> 00:37:24,525 Bet you get good tables in restaurants now. 428 00:37:24,901 --> 00:37:26,443 I do. 429 00:37:28,113 --> 00:37:30,030 Life was kind to you. 430 00:37:33,201 --> 00:37:34,660 Gods smiled when you were born. 431 00:37:34,828 --> 00:37:40,082 They looked down and they said, "Look there, that one is a writer. 432 00:37:40,250 --> 00:37:43,252 His words will be celebrated." 433 00:37:43,419 --> 00:37:45,921 I don't know if it's that grandiose. I just got lucky. 434 00:37:46,089 --> 00:37:48,132 I wrote a book, people happened to like it. 435 00:37:48,299 --> 00:37:51,009 I mean, I don't know how things happen. 436 00:37:51,803 --> 00:37:53,262 I mean, I wrote two books... 437 00:37:53,429 --> 00:37:56,515 that wouldn't have gotten published if that one never did. 438 00:37:56,683 --> 00:37:59,601 Well, I'll bet they'll publish them now. 439 00:38:03,898 --> 00:38:05,858 I read your book. 440 00:38:07,235 --> 00:38:10,487 I liked it very, very much. 441 00:38:10,655 --> 00:38:12,114 Thank you. I appreciate that. 442 00:38:12,282 --> 00:38:14,992 And now forgive an old fan for a moment. 443 00:38:15,160 --> 00:38:17,327 Just indulge me. 444 00:38:19,164 --> 00:38:20,664 You wrote about Paris... 445 00:38:20,832 --> 00:38:22,958 right after the war. 446 00:38:23,126 --> 00:38:26,920 And when I read your stories, I was right there. 447 00:38:27,255 --> 00:38:31,717 I tasted that wine, the sweetness of that wine. 448 00:38:31,885 --> 00:38:33,594 I... 449 00:38:34,888 --> 00:38:37,222 made love to the girl. 450 00:38:38,224 --> 00:38:40,309 I sat in the cafe that morning... 451 00:38:40,476 --> 00:38:42,352 wondering... 452 00:38:42,520 --> 00:38:45,230 what the future held for me. 453 00:38:45,398 --> 00:38:49,318 Or if it held anything at all for me. 454 00:38:51,487 --> 00:38:53,322 I heard... 455 00:38:54,199 --> 00:38:57,075 that child cry in the night. 456 00:38:58,703 --> 00:39:01,788 And I felt the longing... 457 00:39:01,956 --> 00:39:04,875 for my home so far away. 458 00:39:08,421 --> 00:39:11,506 You are some writer, my friend. 459 00:39:12,926 --> 00:39:14,676 Thank you. 460 00:39:16,638 --> 00:39:19,598 Wow, thank you. I really do appreciate that. 461 00:39:20,558 --> 00:39:22,434 I have to go. My wife... 462 00:39:22,602 --> 00:39:24,102 I know, I know. 463 00:39:24,270 --> 00:39:26,980 Artists always feel uncomfortable talking about their work. 464 00:39:27,148 --> 00:39:29,483 - No, no, no. - I wonder if there's just one thing... 465 00:39:29,651 --> 00:39:31,485 - you'd do for me. - Sure. 466 00:39:31,653 --> 00:39:35,197 I wondered if you'd autograph... 467 00:39:35,365 --> 00:39:37,157 - my copy of your book. - Of course. 468 00:39:38,034 --> 00:39:39,826 Do you have a pen? 469 00:39:43,748 --> 00:39:46,166 A writer without a pen. 470 00:39:46,334 --> 00:39:47,668 Well... 471 00:39:47,835 --> 00:39:49,628 Well, today's a reading day. 472 00:39:49,796 --> 00:39:51,046 Oh, yes. 473 00:39:51,214 --> 00:39:53,423 Well, I have a pen. 474 00:39:53,591 --> 00:39:55,300 So... 475 00:39:55,468 --> 00:39:57,135 I do have a story. 476 00:39:57,929 --> 00:39:59,096 A very good story. 477 00:39:59,264 --> 00:40:03,433 Now, I know you get this line all the time, but I think you'll like the story. 478 00:40:04,143 --> 00:40:08,397 If I was to tell you the story and you wrote it... 479 00:40:08,564 --> 00:40:10,399 well, then, maybe... 480 00:40:10,566 --> 00:40:12,276 you could give me a little credit? 481 00:40:14,612 --> 00:40:16,905 Well, that wouldn't be fair, would it? 482 00:40:17,657 --> 00:40:19,283 Have a good day. 483 00:40:19,867 --> 00:40:22,577 It's about a man who wrote a book and then lost it... 484 00:40:22,745 --> 00:40:25,706 and the pissant kid who found it. 485 00:40:30,878 --> 00:40:32,713 You still here? 486 00:40:41,723 --> 00:40:44,141 Do you want to hear my story? 487 00:40:46,311 --> 00:40:48,186 Or don't you have the time? 488 00:41:00,575 --> 00:41:02,200 So... 489 00:41:03,661 --> 00:41:08,248 it's 1944, and there's this 18-year-old kid... 490 00:41:08,416 --> 00:41:12,377 a soldier in the army, never saw any action. 491 00:41:12,545 --> 00:41:16,840 He was sent to Paris right at the end of the war. 492 00:41:19,802 --> 00:41:21,595 There he is... 493 00:41:21,763 --> 00:41:25,974 a dumb kid with a dumb-ass grin on his face. 494 00:41:26,768 --> 00:41:29,436 There he is in Paris. 495 00:41:29,604 --> 00:41:33,899 To him, it might as well have been the other side of the goddamned world. 496 00:41:36,319 --> 00:41:42,032 It was a joke that his unit was constantly drawing the worst details. 497 00:41:42,200 --> 00:41:44,659 Most of the time, they were relaying sewage pipes... 498 00:41:44,827 --> 00:41:47,621 blown apart by the Germans during the occupation. 499 00:41:47,789 --> 00:41:49,456 It was god-awful work. 500 00:41:49,624 --> 00:41:51,583 Street smell. 501 00:41:51,793 --> 00:41:53,752 I miss Utah. 502 00:41:56,464 --> 00:41:59,091 Somehow the kid was happy... 503 00:41:59,258 --> 00:42:00,967 like a pig in shit. 504 00:42:03,888 --> 00:42:06,556 The guys in his unit, most of them were different... 505 00:42:06,724 --> 00:42:09,643 from anybody he'd known in his neighborhood. 506 00:42:09,811 --> 00:42:14,481 They were from all over, little towns he'd never even heard of. 507 00:42:21,948 --> 00:42:23,407 Poor kid probably hit a mine. 508 00:42:23,574 --> 00:42:25,867 Let's get the body to the morgue. 509 00:42:32,708 --> 00:42:37,796 That was the only dead body he saw his whole time in the Army. 510 00:42:39,799 --> 00:42:42,926 There was this one guy in his unit real different to him... 511 00:42:43,094 --> 00:42:45,971 an intellectual, real bookworm... 512 00:42:46,139 --> 00:42:50,267 and over time, he became the boy's best friend. 513 00:42:52,019 --> 00:42:54,688 He lent him some books to read... 514 00:42:54,856 --> 00:42:58,900 the first books the kid had ever read about anything. 515 00:43:02,155 --> 00:43:03,989 For the first time... 516 00:43:04,157 --> 00:43:09,411 he saw a world that was bigger than the one he'd been born into. 517 00:43:11,080 --> 00:43:14,040 And he wanted more. 518 00:43:17,420 --> 00:43:19,713 He wanted to be something more. 519 00:43:19,881 --> 00:43:22,132 - A writer. - Yeah... 520 00:43:22,300 --> 00:43:25,802 but he had no idea what the word really meant. 521 00:43:25,970 --> 00:43:29,514 Certainly didn't have a clue about how to go about it. 522 00:43:31,893 --> 00:43:33,602 You grew up in Philadelphia? 523 00:43:33,769 --> 00:43:35,604 Grew up in Philly but born in London. 524 00:43:35,771 --> 00:43:37,230 London? 525 00:43:48,659 --> 00:43:50,285 What did she just say? 526 00:43:50,703 --> 00:43:53,205 - What did she say? - My French is a little weak... 527 00:43:53,372 --> 00:43:55,665 but I'm pretty sure she said she loves you. 528 00:44:02,423 --> 00:44:04,257 - Go talk to her. - No. 529 00:44:04,425 --> 00:44:06,009 - Go. - That's not funny. 530 00:44:06,177 --> 00:44:07,302 Go talk to her. 531 00:44:07,470 --> 00:44:09,137 Come on, if you don't, I will. 532 00:44:12,183 --> 00:44:15,185 He found out some time later that what she'd actually said was: 533 00:44:15,353 --> 00:44:17,646 "Pay your check and get the hell out of here." 534 00:44:18,064 --> 00:44:20,941 But who was he to question fate? 535 00:44:22,985 --> 00:44:26,112 He'd picked up one word of French. 536 00:44:27,782 --> 00:44:30,534 And she knew one word of English. 537 00:44:30,701 --> 00:44:32,327 Yes. 538 00:44:35,164 --> 00:44:38,250 It was the perfect relationship. 539 00:44:44,173 --> 00:44:45,715 What is ice cream? 540 00:44:53,432 --> 00:44:55,183 What? 541 00:44:55,351 --> 00:44:57,352 - What? - It's cold in my head. 542 00:44:57,520 --> 00:44:59,563 - Cold in your head? - Yeah, pain. 543 00:44:59,730 --> 00:45:02,691 Go like this. Take your finger like this. 544 00:45:02,858 --> 00:45:06,069 Under your tongue. It's a little trick. It'll make it go away, okay? 545 00:45:08,281 --> 00:45:11,366 - It doesn't wanna go. - Give it a second, okay? 546 00:45:12,827 --> 00:45:14,244 Now? 547 00:45:14,996 --> 00:45:16,246 It's gone. 548 00:45:16,414 --> 00:45:17,664 Told you. 549 00:45:18,207 --> 00:45:19,457 Okay, one more. 550 00:45:35,683 --> 00:45:37,225 What happened? 551 00:45:38,185 --> 00:45:40,854 He got discharged from the Army. 552 00:46:15,348 --> 00:46:19,100 But what once was his whole world suddenly seemed... 553 00:46:19,769 --> 00:46:21,436 small. 554 00:46:22,647 --> 00:46:25,273 Nothing had changed since he'd been away. 555 00:46:28,110 --> 00:46:29,986 Except him. 556 00:46:31,155 --> 00:46:32,197 He had changed. 557 00:46:35,409 --> 00:46:37,118 For the first time in his life... 558 00:46:37,828 --> 00:46:39,704 he tried to write. 559 00:46:41,749 --> 00:46:43,083 Tried to write about Paris... 560 00:46:43,250 --> 00:46:45,460 about what he'd seen... 561 00:46:45,628 --> 00:46:47,837 and how he'd felt. 562 00:46:48,881 --> 00:46:51,925 But the words just wouldn't come. 563 00:47:04,188 --> 00:47:07,065 He knew the life he wanted. 564 00:47:08,567 --> 00:47:11,569 He knew what he had to do to get it. 565 00:47:40,433 --> 00:47:44,436 The young man began his apprenticeship as a writer. 566 00:47:45,396 --> 00:47:49,899 He got a job as a journalist for a small English-language weekly. 567 00:47:50,484 --> 00:47:53,903 There were a lot of them springing up for all the expats... 568 00:47:54,071 --> 00:47:58,366 and they'd hire anyone who could string a few words together. 569 00:47:59,660 --> 00:48:02,662 It was a good place to learn. 570 00:48:42,077 --> 00:48:45,163 He married Celia two weeks later. 571 00:49:05,476 --> 00:49:10,647 Six pounds and three ounces, eyes like her mother. 572 00:49:13,192 --> 00:49:16,361 That was his moment... 573 00:49:16,779 --> 00:49:19,614 not that he knew it at the time. 574 00:49:24,078 --> 00:49:26,579 Maybe one never does. 575 00:49:46,600 --> 00:49:51,229 She used to cry so much. 576 00:49:51,981 --> 00:49:56,734 At times, he could barely think, let alone write. 577 00:50:05,286 --> 00:50:06,703 Sir? 578 00:50:09,415 --> 00:50:10,874 She was sick. 579 00:50:12,293 --> 00:50:13,501 The wife? 580 00:50:14,086 --> 00:50:15,837 My daughter. 581 00:50:23,387 --> 00:50:25,680 There was nothing he could do. 582 00:51:12,144 --> 00:51:14,479 Celia was never the same. 583 00:51:16,106 --> 00:51:18,399 And he wasn't the same either... 584 00:51:18,901 --> 00:51:22,654 even though he tried to pretend. 585 00:52:05,406 --> 00:52:07,281 I'll be back later. 586 00:52:33,392 --> 00:52:34,976 Celia? 587 00:52:50,117 --> 00:52:53,619 She said she'd gone home to her mother's in the country. 588 00:52:55,164 --> 00:52:57,623 Needed time to think. 589 00:52:58,000 --> 00:53:00,626 She needed to be apart. 590 00:56:00,057 --> 00:56:04,268 He couldn't remember sleeping or eating. 591 00:56:08,482 --> 00:56:12,193 The words simply poured out of him. 592 00:56:15,989 --> 00:56:19,033 A stream that he could not control... 593 00:56:19,826 --> 00:56:22,453 nor question where they came from. 594 00:56:22,621 --> 00:56:26,707 The words became form, the form became whole... 595 00:56:26,875 --> 00:56:30,920 and after two weeks, it was finished. 596 00:56:48,105 --> 00:56:49,647 And then? 597 00:56:49,815 --> 00:56:51,607 Then he slept. 598 00:56:52,192 --> 00:56:54,235 Dreamless sleep. 599 00:56:54,778 --> 00:57:00,366 When he woke, he cleaned the apartment and went to find his wife. 600 00:57:03,537 --> 00:57:06,455 She looked like a child to him... 601 00:57:07,082 --> 00:57:10,334 sitting in the room she grew up in. 602 00:57:14,089 --> 00:57:16,966 She begged him to go back to Paris without her. 603 00:57:17,134 --> 00:57:19,010 Just go. Go. 604 00:58:03,555 --> 00:58:07,183 A few weeks later, she finally came home. 605 00:58:27,579 --> 00:58:29,580 He was so grateful to have her home. 606 00:58:29,748 --> 00:58:31,290 Thank you. 607 00:58:32,709 --> 00:58:35,127 He just wanted to hold her... 608 00:58:35,462 --> 00:58:37,588 see her laugh again. 609 00:58:40,008 --> 00:58:43,636 So you read my story? 610 00:58:44,888 --> 00:58:46,347 No, I'm not ready yet. 611 00:58:46,515 --> 00:58:48,724 She said she wanted to start life over. 612 00:58:48,892 --> 00:58:50,935 Well, that's okay. 613 00:58:51,103 --> 00:58:54,271 Said it like it would be the easiest thing in the world to do. 614 00:58:54,439 --> 00:58:57,149 It's in the valise here. 615 00:59:00,987 --> 00:59:02,238 No. 616 00:59:02,989 --> 00:59:06,325 I don't understand, I had it with me on the train. 617 00:59:06,493 --> 00:59:09,620 - What? - I had it with me on the train. 618 00:59:11,123 --> 00:59:14,166 But it was in a different case? 619 00:59:33,603 --> 00:59:35,855 It shouldn't have meant anything... 620 00:59:37,232 --> 00:59:41,986 but writing that story had somehow saved him. 621 00:59:44,030 --> 00:59:46,657 How could she not understand? 622 00:59:48,952 --> 00:59:52,955 For years, he'd never forgive himself for caring about those stupid words. 623 00:59:53,165 --> 00:59:54,790 You know what? 624 00:59:55,208 --> 00:59:58,377 You are not the only one who lost her. 625 01:00:22,402 --> 01:00:26,447 She left something. Listen to me, okay? 626 01:00:43,340 --> 01:00:47,218 For a time, they tried to patch things up together... 627 01:00:48,386 --> 01:00:50,888 but you can't erase the past... 628 01:00:52,265 --> 01:00:55,100 no matter how much you want to. 629 01:00:59,481 --> 01:01:04,026 And for the first time, the young man began to long for home. 630 01:01:06,863 --> 01:01:12,076 Soon the longing grew so strong he... 631 01:01:13,662 --> 01:01:15,246 He left. 632 01:01:20,126 --> 01:01:22,461 Never went back to Paris... 633 01:01:25,465 --> 01:01:28,008 never saw Celia again. 634 01:01:34,140 --> 01:01:37,351 But after he lost those pages... 635 01:01:39,771 --> 01:01:44,525 he was never able to set down one word... 636 01:01:46,152 --> 01:01:48,153 that looked right to him. 637 01:01:51,283 --> 01:01:54,618 Maybe he was afraid of going that deep again. 638 01:01:56,830 --> 01:02:00,874 Perhaps he just lost the knack. Anyway, he stopped trying. 639 01:02:02,210 --> 01:02:05,129 And after a time... 640 01:02:05,880 --> 01:02:10,551 he found a little town up north, settled there. 641 01:02:12,220 --> 01:02:15,973 Found a kind of peace. 642 01:02:18,268 --> 01:02:20,311 How's that feel? 643 01:02:26,151 --> 01:02:27,526 Wait. 644 01:02:28,945 --> 01:02:30,946 It's not over yet. 645 01:02:32,699 --> 01:02:37,202 This is where it really gets interesting. 646 01:02:41,750 --> 01:02:44,752 Long after all of this faded into the past... 647 01:02:44,919 --> 01:02:49,173 the young man, who was now an old man... 648 01:02:49,716 --> 01:02:52,426 wandered into a bookstore. 649 01:02:55,472 --> 01:02:59,475 The blurb said that the author of the story is a new fresh voice... 650 01:02:59,643 --> 01:03:02,436 who had something new to say. 651 01:03:03,605 --> 01:03:07,566 I opened the book and began to read. 652 01:03:08,109 --> 01:03:09,777 Your book. 653 01:03:11,029 --> 01:03:15,616 And the narrator was standing over a crib. 654 01:03:16,868 --> 01:03:19,828 His child was dying... 655 01:03:19,996 --> 01:03:23,415 and there was nothing he could do. 656 01:03:27,754 --> 01:03:29,171 Look... 657 01:03:35,220 --> 01:03:38,138 A misunderstanding, I... 658 01:03:38,348 --> 01:03:40,599 No, no, my friend... 659 01:03:40,767 --> 01:03:44,770 - ..there's no misunderstanding, no. - I found... 660 01:03:45,730 --> 01:03:49,024 You can't slide out of it now. 661 01:03:50,944 --> 01:03:54,113 These are my words... 662 01:03:54,656 --> 01:03:57,116 my stories. 663 01:04:02,372 --> 01:04:06,333 What the fuck is a window tear anyway? 664 01:04:10,338 --> 01:04:13,340 I don't know how you did it. 665 01:04:15,301 --> 01:04:17,886 To be brutally honest, I don't care. 666 01:04:19,681 --> 01:04:23,600 I just thought you should know the story... 667 01:04:23,768 --> 01:04:27,771 behind these stories in case anyone was to ask. 668 01:04:30,942 --> 01:04:35,738 Maybe now you've got your next book. 669 01:05:01,931 --> 01:05:04,683 "And he sat on that bench, unaware of the world..." 670 01:05:04,851 --> 01:05:07,311 or of time passing around him. 671 01:05:07,979 --> 01:05:11,273 After a few hours, the sun finally set... 672 01:05:11,441 --> 01:05:14,359 and Rory Jansen slowly rose... 673 01:05:15,153 --> 01:05:17,780 "...searching for his way home." 674 01:05:21,367 --> 01:05:23,035 Thank you. 675 01:05:27,207 --> 01:05:29,333 If you wanna know the rest of the story... 676 01:05:30,126 --> 01:05:32,503 you'll just have to buy the book. 677 01:05:34,422 --> 01:05:37,674 Your work, you seem hesitant to draw any conclusions about our moral behavior. 678 01:05:37,842 --> 01:05:41,261 - Do you make any statements about that? - Yes, I am hesitant. 679 01:05:41,429 --> 01:05:44,515 What I think is great about art and artists... 680 01:05:44,682 --> 01:05:47,935 is that we get to ask the questions... 681 01:05:50,980 --> 01:05:53,524 even though we may never know the answers. 682 01:05:58,196 --> 01:06:00,030 Excuse me a minute. 683 01:06:09,874 --> 01:06:12,459 Excuse me, Miss... 684 01:06:12,627 --> 01:06:14,962 may I seem some ID first? 685 01:06:16,256 --> 01:06:20,342 - You looked like you were drowning. - No, no. I'm in my element. 686 01:06:21,469 --> 01:06:22,928 You wanna get out of here? 687 01:06:23,096 --> 01:06:26,723 Well, I'm supposed to be over there, mingling, taking pictures... 688 01:06:26,891 --> 01:06:30,853 and smiling. Raising all that money in these troubled economic times. 689 01:06:31,020 --> 01:06:33,522 - That's too bad. - Well, okay, you talked me into it. 690 01:06:33,690 --> 01:06:36,358 - Okay, I thought you'd never ask. - Let's slam these. 691 01:06:39,028 --> 01:06:41,196 I wanna see where you write. 692 01:06:41,364 --> 01:06:43,991 I can assure you, it's not that exciting. 693 01:06:44,158 --> 01:06:47,119 Why don't you let me be the judge of that? 694 01:06:53,626 --> 01:06:56,128 This place, it's... 695 01:06:56,296 --> 01:06:59,882 - Empty. - Empty, yeah. 696 01:07:00,049 --> 01:07:03,385 Somehow it's exactly the way I imagined it. 697 01:07:03,553 --> 01:07:07,264 Really? So you imagined me living in a place for eight months... 698 01:07:07,432 --> 01:07:08,807 and barely unpacking a box? 699 01:07:10,184 --> 01:07:12,853 It's very elegant, Mr. Hammond. 700 01:07:13,354 --> 01:07:15,814 - May I take your jacket? - Yes. 701 01:07:24,198 --> 01:07:27,159 See, I told you it's not all that exciting. 702 01:07:27,327 --> 01:07:28,452 Are you kidding? 703 01:07:28,620 --> 01:07:31,914 I could write my entire dissertation on your view. 704 01:07:35,001 --> 01:07:37,753 That was hit by Babe Ruth. 705 01:07:37,921 --> 01:07:41,298 Unfortunately, it was when he was a goddamn Red Sock... 706 01:07:41,466 --> 01:07:43,383 but what can you do? 707 01:07:45,637 --> 01:07:47,804 I've got a bottle of Bordeaux downstairs... 708 01:07:47,972 --> 01:07:50,849 that's just been screaming for an occasion like this. 709 01:07:51,017 --> 01:07:52,851 You know, that sounds good. 710 01:07:53,436 --> 01:07:55,687 - Come on. - Can we drink it here? 711 01:07:57,440 --> 01:08:01,360 - What, at my desk? - Yeah. Can we? 712 01:08:03,613 --> 01:08:05,989 We can do anything we want. 713 01:08:06,532 --> 01:08:07,824 We're grown-ups. 714 01:08:08,451 --> 01:08:10,077 Then get the wine. 715 01:09:29,490 --> 01:09:32,617 - Your wine. - Thank you. 716 01:09:32,785 --> 01:09:35,787 So, what should we drink to? 717 01:09:35,955 --> 01:09:38,457 Your new book, of course. 718 01:09:40,168 --> 01:09:42,753 - How about we drink to...? - Your book. 719 01:09:46,382 --> 01:09:48,216 Will you tell me something? 720 01:09:48,968 --> 01:09:50,427 What happens? 721 01:09:51,637 --> 01:09:54,890 What happens to Rory after the old man finds him? 722 01:09:55,058 --> 01:09:58,643 - Will you tell me something? - If I can. 723 01:09:59,312 --> 01:10:04,357 Why would such a beautiful, intelligent girl such as yourself wanna be... 724 01:10:04,525 --> 01:10:08,028 - something so silly as a writer? - Silly? 725 01:10:08,196 --> 01:10:10,197 Don't you know words ruin everything? 726 01:10:10,364 --> 01:10:13,283 I don't believe you for a second. You love words. 727 01:10:16,662 --> 01:10:21,917 I'm young, spoiled, impetuous and American. Humor me. 728 01:10:23,836 --> 01:10:28,048 Please? Pretty, pretty, pretty please? 729 01:10:30,468 --> 01:10:32,010 Close your eyes. 730 01:10:50,530 --> 01:10:55,992 And so, like so many of the great clichés in the history of civilization... 731 01:10:56,244 --> 01:11:00,539 Rory Jansen decided the only thing to do was... 732 01:11:02,375 --> 01:11:04,334 drink on it. 733 01:11:13,511 --> 01:11:19,182 And so he gets rip-roaring, death-defyingly drunk... 734 01:11:19,350 --> 01:11:20,767 and now he's got his nerve. 735 01:11:21,686 --> 01:11:23,854 And he starts to think. 736 01:11:24,021 --> 01:11:27,607 He allows himself to think the whole thing through. 737 01:11:28,025 --> 01:11:31,486 Maybe for the first time in his entire life. 738 01:11:31,654 --> 01:11:34,364 And he comes to the conclusion... 739 01:11:34,532 --> 01:11:37,284 or more appropriately, this myth... 740 01:11:37,451 --> 01:11:40,036 that he's heard so many times before... 741 01:11:40,204 --> 01:11:44,124 that the truth shall set you free. 742 01:11:49,964 --> 01:11:52,799 Hey. Guess what, I spoke to the realtor today... 743 01:11:52,967 --> 01:11:56,553 and she said that we can move in as early as the 6th. 744 01:11:56,721 --> 01:11:58,972 Isn't that awesome? 745 01:12:02,393 --> 01:12:04,436 We'll need to buy some carpets and stuff... 746 01:12:04,604 --> 01:12:05,896 Why do you love me? 747 01:12:08,816 --> 01:12:10,734 - Dora? - Are you drunk? 748 01:12:10,902 --> 01:12:12,986 I need to know why you love me. 749 01:12:18,326 --> 01:12:19,910 Okay. 750 01:12:24,373 --> 01:12:27,876 I love you because you have beautiful eyes. 751 01:12:30,254 --> 01:12:34,090 I love you because you're serious all the time... 752 01:12:34,258 --> 01:12:38,011 but deep, deep down, you're nothing but a goof ball. 753 01:12:38,512 --> 01:12:40,138 I just love you. 754 01:12:40,306 --> 01:12:42,390 Rory, what's going on? 755 01:12:43,226 --> 01:12:45,727 You really think my eyes are beautiful? 756 01:12:47,063 --> 01:12:49,648 I think your eyes are beautiful, yes. 757 01:12:50,107 --> 01:12:51,983 They're not mine. 758 01:12:55,571 --> 01:12:58,531 - Okay. - I'm a liar. 759 01:13:02,536 --> 01:13:04,162 I don't... 760 01:13:04,872 --> 01:13:06,373 What are you doing right now? 761 01:13:06,540 --> 01:13:09,584 - What's wrong? - I didn't write the book. 762 01:13:12,672 --> 01:13:14,297 What do you...? 763 01:13:14,465 --> 01:13:17,342 The book, I stole it. 764 01:13:18,427 --> 01:13:20,011 I just found it. 765 01:13:20,179 --> 01:13:23,515 I didn't even change any of it. I mean, I... 766 01:13:24,100 --> 01:13:28,353 I don't know who I was stealing it from and... 767 01:13:28,521 --> 01:13:30,230 But I knew it wasn't mine. 768 01:13:30,398 --> 01:13:31,982 I'm very confused right now. 769 01:13:32,149 --> 01:13:35,443 So you didn't...? You...? You didn't write the book? 770 01:13:35,611 --> 01:13:41,574 None of it's mine, not one single word. 771 01:13:44,203 --> 01:13:46,162 I don't know what's going on. 772 01:13:48,708 --> 01:13:51,793 It was there and... 773 01:13:55,548 --> 01:13:58,633 I think I wanted so badly... 774 01:13:59,302 --> 01:14:02,053 for it to have come from me... 775 01:14:06,142 --> 01:14:10,061 and then the look, the way you looked at me... 776 01:14:10,730 --> 01:14:12,897 when you thought it was mine... 777 01:14:14,859 --> 01:14:20,238 And for a moment I actually convinced myself that I wrote it. 778 01:14:20,990 --> 01:14:22,657 Do you believe that? 779 01:14:22,825 --> 01:14:25,201 I could never write anything that good. I know that. 780 01:14:25,369 --> 01:14:28,872 - Okay, so then... - You... I mean, you said so yourself... 781 01:14:29,040 --> 01:14:30,290 I said... I said what? 782 01:14:31,459 --> 01:14:34,586 - It doesn't matter. - What? What did I say? 783 01:14:34,754 --> 01:14:37,172 You should've known. You did know, right? You knew... 784 01:14:37,340 --> 01:14:39,841 - What do you mean? - You knew when you read them... 785 01:14:40,009 --> 01:14:41,968 - that they weren't my words. - I knew? 786 01:14:42,136 --> 01:14:43,470 You know me so well. 787 01:14:43,637 --> 01:14:45,180 You were doing research on Paris. 788 01:14:45,348 --> 01:14:47,349 We had just gotten back from our honeymoon. 789 01:14:47,516 --> 01:14:49,768 Yeah, but you had to have known. 790 01:14:49,935 --> 01:14:51,519 What do you mean? I believed you. 791 01:14:51,687 --> 01:14:54,314 - No, you wanted to believe. - I know, I believed you! 792 01:14:54,482 --> 01:14:57,108 - You wanted to... - I believed you! 793 01:15:10,456 --> 01:15:12,040 Dora? 794 01:15:27,223 --> 01:15:29,432 Don't touch it. 795 01:15:35,314 --> 01:15:37,357 You lied to me. 796 01:15:40,861 --> 01:15:42,779 When you... 797 01:15:42,947 --> 01:15:45,782 When you read those words, when you copied them... 798 01:15:45,950 --> 01:15:49,869 did you ever stop to think about us? 799 01:15:53,249 --> 01:15:56,042 Did you think about what this was gonna do to us? 800 01:15:56,210 --> 01:15:57,669 To you? 801 01:15:58,712 --> 01:16:00,964 Did I ever cross your mind? 802 01:16:07,888 --> 01:16:09,514 I can't be here right now. 803 01:16:10,057 --> 01:16:13,435 I'm sorry, I just can't be here. 804 01:16:30,870 --> 01:16:32,579 You really fucked up. 805 01:16:35,249 --> 01:16:38,668 I think we need to think this through. 806 01:16:39,670 --> 01:16:40,837 What does that mean? 807 01:16:42,548 --> 01:16:44,924 You got the cover of the book review this Sunday. 808 01:16:45,426 --> 01:16:47,802 I didn't get the cover of this, some old man got it. 809 01:16:47,970 --> 01:16:50,138 The other book of yours, did you write that? 810 01:16:50,306 --> 01:16:52,474 Of course I wrote that. But I didn't plan this. 811 01:16:52,641 --> 01:16:54,309 This isn't something that I planned. 812 01:16:54,477 --> 01:16:57,937 But the only reason why anybody ever read my stuff is because of this book. 813 01:16:58,898 --> 01:17:00,899 You don't want this. 814 01:17:01,358 --> 01:17:04,652 Everything you're saying you want, you don't want it. 815 01:17:05,821 --> 01:17:07,530 Just take my name off the book. 816 01:17:07,698 --> 01:17:10,992 And what do you think is gonna happen? 817 01:17:12,203 --> 01:17:14,746 Do you think they're gonna give you a hall pass? 818 01:17:14,914 --> 01:17:17,081 The media? The press? They're gonna crucify you. 819 01:17:17,249 --> 01:17:20,084 And my ass is out there on the line with you. 820 01:17:22,880 --> 01:17:25,381 You wanna pay this man off your advance... 821 01:17:25,549 --> 01:17:27,425 that's the right thing to do. 822 01:17:27,593 --> 01:17:29,761 You wanna cut him into the movie rights, fine. 823 01:17:29,929 --> 01:17:32,388 You wanna buy him a house, a car, a fucking boat? 824 01:17:32,556 --> 01:17:34,974 But don't screw yourself for the rest of your life... 825 01:17:35,142 --> 01:17:37,936 for one stupid mistake. And don't you fuck me! 826 01:17:47,446 --> 01:17:50,907 Trust me, this isn't the first time an author's done something like this. 827 01:17:51,075 --> 01:17:52,617 Don't do that. 828 01:17:53,494 --> 01:17:55,078 You may not believe me now... 829 01:17:57,540 --> 01:17:59,832 but you will thank me later. 830 01:18:03,754 --> 01:18:06,047 My book, the one you sold... 831 01:18:10,177 --> 01:18:12,220 is it as good as this book? 832 01:18:15,349 --> 01:18:17,433 Tell me the truth, Joe. 833 01:18:20,771 --> 01:18:22,397 Thank you. 834 01:18:27,695 --> 01:18:30,405 We're supposed to have dinner with your parents tonight. 835 01:18:32,032 --> 01:18:33,950 I'm really not up for it. 836 01:18:34,827 --> 01:18:36,911 Fine, I'll call your mother. 837 01:18:40,708 --> 01:18:43,960 How much longer until this is over, Rory? 838 01:18:44,128 --> 01:18:45,545 What do you want from me? 839 01:18:46,964 --> 01:18:50,508 Do you think you're the only person on this earth who's ever made a mistake? 840 01:18:51,302 --> 01:18:53,469 Are you gonna let this destroy you? 841 01:18:54,221 --> 01:18:56,014 Destroy us? 842 01:19:01,020 --> 01:19:03,229 What if we had a baby? 843 01:19:06,525 --> 01:19:10,153 We've always wanted to. We've always wanted to start a family. 844 01:19:18,287 --> 01:19:20,204 I think I'm gonna break. 845 01:19:20,664 --> 01:19:24,167 I'm gonna break in half. I'm gonna break in half. 846 01:19:24,335 --> 01:19:28,046 You're not gonna break. You're not gonna break. 847 01:19:31,800 --> 01:19:33,468 I won't let you. 848 01:19:41,977 --> 01:19:44,604 Can we just try to put this behind us? 849 01:19:49,193 --> 01:19:51,819 Look at me. Can we? 850 01:20:47,751 --> 01:20:49,627 How are you doing today? 851 01:21:03,350 --> 01:21:07,520 - What type of plant is that? - Plectranthus. 852 01:21:08,021 --> 01:21:10,148 Swedish ivy. 853 01:21:11,358 --> 01:21:12,900 It's nice. 854 01:21:16,071 --> 01:21:20,742 You come up here just to bullshit about plants? 855 01:21:21,368 --> 01:21:22,910 No, I did not. 856 01:21:23,620 --> 01:21:26,831 Well, if you came to see if I was gonna blow the whistle on you... 857 01:21:26,999 --> 01:21:32,837 you should relax and go back home to your great, big life. 858 01:21:33,839 --> 01:21:35,465 I wanna fix this. 859 01:21:37,134 --> 01:21:39,427 There's nothing to fix. 860 01:21:41,096 --> 01:21:46,309 You just go live the life you made for yourself. 861 01:21:46,852 --> 01:21:49,937 If you didn't want anything, why did you come find me and tell me? 862 01:21:50,105 --> 01:21:52,482 It couldn't be just to torture me. 863 01:21:54,568 --> 01:21:56,944 You don't even know who I am. 864 01:21:57,112 --> 01:21:59,864 You don't know how, you don't know why. 865 01:22:00,282 --> 01:22:02,325 I just... 866 01:22:03,368 --> 01:22:06,454 thought you should know, that's all. 867 01:22:08,749 --> 01:22:12,126 Do you think you can just steal part of my life? 868 01:22:12,294 --> 01:22:14,003 Any man's life? 869 01:22:14,171 --> 01:22:16,422 Take it as your own... 870 01:22:16,590 --> 01:22:18,508 and expect there'd be no price to pay? 871 01:22:18,675 --> 01:22:23,262 No. Don't you understand? This is why I'm here. 872 01:22:23,430 --> 01:22:26,265 Put that back in your pocket or I'll kick the shit out of you. 873 01:22:26,433 --> 01:22:29,310 This is not a payoff. This is all I could get out right now... 874 01:22:29,478 --> 01:22:32,188 but it's all yours. I'm gonna take my name off the book. 875 01:22:32,356 --> 01:22:34,273 I'm gonna tell everybody the truth. 876 01:22:34,608 --> 01:22:37,860 Then you're even more of a fool than I thought you were. 877 01:22:38,028 --> 01:22:41,656 - What is all this about then? - What is it about? 878 01:22:42,699 --> 01:22:45,034 It's about my life. 879 01:22:45,327 --> 01:22:48,621 It's about my wife, about my child. 880 01:22:48,789 --> 01:22:53,876 It's about the joy and the pain that gave birth to those words. 881 01:22:55,546 --> 01:22:59,966 You take those words, you take the pain. 882 01:23:05,389 --> 01:23:10,476 Now, why don't you buy a plant with that money? 883 01:23:11,103 --> 01:23:13,563 Here, a Plectranthus, since you love them so much. 884 01:23:13,730 --> 01:23:17,984 You take your plant and your money and you get out of here. Get out of here. 885 01:23:19,236 --> 01:23:20,987 Hey, I wanna make things right. 886 01:23:21,154 --> 01:23:22,989 You can't just make things right. 887 01:23:23,156 --> 01:23:24,991 Things are just things. 888 01:23:25,158 --> 01:23:29,161 You understand? No matter how you try and martyr yourself. 889 01:23:34,001 --> 01:23:36,335 I've got work to do. This place doesn't run itself. 890 01:23:36,503 --> 01:23:39,005 Sir, sir. Please. Sir. 891 01:23:40,674 --> 01:23:41,799 Please! 892 01:23:58,525 --> 01:24:01,193 I did see her one more time. 893 01:24:02,321 --> 01:24:03,863 You did? 894 01:24:06,366 --> 01:24:07,700 In New Jersey. 895 01:24:07,910 --> 01:24:11,662 I was on my way to work. 896 01:25:27,030 --> 01:25:29,490 Over all those years... 897 01:25:31,660 --> 01:25:34,286 I thought about her every day. 898 01:25:37,582 --> 01:25:41,502 Broken because of what I did to her. 899 01:25:41,670 --> 01:25:45,506 And then all of a sudden, there she was. 900 01:25:53,098 --> 01:25:54,974 She seemed happy. 901 01:25:59,771 --> 01:26:05,151 Well, if I was to tell you that realization didn't cause me pain, I'd be lying. 902 01:26:05,819 --> 01:26:08,070 But, in some ways, it helped me. 903 01:26:08,572 --> 01:26:10,990 Helped me turn a corner. 904 01:26:13,326 --> 01:26:17,955 Pick up again without looking back all the time. 905 01:26:23,336 --> 01:26:27,506 You think I ruined my life because I never wrote again. 906 01:26:27,758 --> 01:26:31,969 - Just because I lost a book of stories. - No, I just... 907 01:26:32,596 --> 01:26:35,222 God, you had so much more to do. 908 01:26:35,682 --> 01:26:38,017 I've done enough. Believe me. 909 01:26:38,185 --> 01:26:42,480 I've done what I can the best that I can. That's all you can ask of a person. 910 01:26:42,647 --> 01:26:44,231 No... 911 01:26:44,816 --> 01:26:50,071 my tragedy was that I loved words more than I loved the woman... 912 01:26:50,864 --> 01:26:53,407 who inspired me to write them. 913 01:26:57,662 --> 01:27:01,707 - You wanna do something for me? - Anything at all. 914 01:27:02,501 --> 01:27:05,252 Walk away, don't look back. 915 01:27:09,758 --> 01:27:12,468 We all make choices in life. 916 01:27:12,969 --> 01:27:15,554 The hard thing is to live with them. 917 01:27:18,642 --> 01:27:21,977 And there ain't nobody can help you with that. 918 01:27:24,106 --> 01:27:25,689 Go on. 919 01:27:31,029 --> 01:27:32,279 Sir? 920 01:27:38,912 --> 01:27:41,038 I do love your book. 921 01:28:13,572 --> 01:28:15,573 We all make our choices. 922 01:28:16,533 --> 01:28:19,743 The hard part is living with them. 923 01:28:31,298 --> 01:28:36,343 Finally, Rory Jansen knew what he had to do... 924 01:28:37,262 --> 01:28:39,180 to live with his. 925 01:28:40,015 --> 01:28:42,349 The Window Tears... 926 01:28:42,517 --> 01:28:44,560 by Rory Jansen. 927 01:28:56,072 --> 01:28:57,489 And the old man? 928 01:28:57,657 --> 01:29:01,702 A few weeks after Rory went to visit him... 929 01:29:01,912 --> 01:29:03,412 the old man died. 930 01:29:04,122 --> 01:29:06,874 And the secret died with him. 931 01:29:11,838 --> 01:29:16,926 Whatever he had to do, whatever he had to lose, he would seal it off. 932 01:29:20,388 --> 01:29:25,392 It was as if by locking off the secret of one man's life forever... 933 01:29:26,102 --> 01:29:27,144 he had unveiled... 934 01:29:27,312 --> 01:29:31,899 another much deeper and darker secret within himself. 935 01:30:18,154 --> 01:30:21,282 And that's it. The end. 936 01:30:22,575 --> 01:30:26,787 No moral, no comeuppance, no incredible gain of knowledge... 937 01:30:26,997 --> 01:30:31,709 other than the belief that one can, after making a terrible mistake in life... 938 01:30:31,876 --> 01:30:36,380 continue to live and perhaps even live well. 939 01:30:40,260 --> 01:30:42,219 Everyone has to sleep at night. 940 01:30:45,181 --> 01:30:48,267 What really happened, Clay, after he tells himself all that? 941 01:30:49,102 --> 01:30:51,687 - I just told you. - No, tell me the truth. 942 01:30:52,856 --> 01:30:57,151 He goes on. He lives, he writes, as well as he can... 943 01:30:57,319 --> 01:31:00,404 - he's a big success. - Bullshit. 944 01:31:00,697 --> 01:31:04,033 I'm not talking about the book. You're just avoiding. Tell me the truth. 945 01:31:04,242 --> 01:31:05,909 What are you afraid of, Clay? 946 01:31:06,244 --> 01:31:07,870 Look, why don't you tell me? 947 01:31:08,455 --> 01:31:10,998 - What? - I wanna know what you think. 948 01:31:11,166 --> 01:31:14,043 You're so smart, you got yourself in here, you got me talking. 949 01:31:15,587 --> 01:31:18,172 Acting so precocious, throwing your little ass around... 950 01:31:18,340 --> 01:31:20,632 quoting Shakespeare, batting your eyelashes. 951 01:31:20,800 --> 01:31:23,135 Why don't you tell me? I wanna know what you think. 952 01:31:23,303 --> 01:31:25,679 What happens to them? 953 01:31:28,475 --> 01:31:31,060 - I... - I...? No, no, no. 954 01:31:31,227 --> 01:31:36,482 You tell me what happens to Rory and Dora or you can get the hell out. 955 01:31:52,665 --> 01:31:54,583 He's fucked. 956 01:32:07,931 --> 01:32:09,598 Now go on. 957 01:32:10,934 --> 01:32:15,396 Maybe he can forget, maybe he can write, create... 958 01:32:15,563 --> 01:32:18,399 but it doesn't matter because he'll never, ever believe it. 959 01:32:18,566 --> 01:32:21,693 He's robbed himself of the chance to find out. 960 01:32:21,861 --> 01:32:23,028 Not bad. 961 01:32:23,196 --> 01:32:26,407 Or maybe he can't write, although he's been able to fool a few people. 962 01:32:26,574 --> 01:32:28,367 Even better. 963 01:32:28,535 --> 01:32:30,786 Maybe his marriage falls apart because for him... 964 01:32:30,954 --> 01:32:34,289 and his wife to look at one another is for them to look at the truth. 965 01:32:34,457 --> 01:32:35,916 Maybe when he goes in public... 966 01:32:36,084 --> 01:32:39,044 he can wear that mask of confidence and sophistication... 967 01:32:39,212 --> 01:32:42,214 but back when he's alone late at night, he can't sleep... 968 01:32:42,382 --> 01:32:47,136 because when he closes his eyes he still sees the face of that old man. 969 01:32:53,852 --> 01:32:55,436 Maybe... 970 01:32:55,603 --> 01:32:58,063 he sees his own face... 971 01:32:58,398 --> 01:33:01,608 and the old man is just a story he made up. 972 01:33:04,696 --> 01:33:08,699 Or maybe he finds himself in his beautiful New York apartment... 973 01:33:08,867 --> 01:33:12,786 overlooking the park, with a girl who's much too young for him... 974 01:33:12,954 --> 01:33:17,166 and he's telling her what he knows to be are tired old stories. 975 01:33:17,333 --> 01:33:23,255 Because for some reason she believes that he has something to give her. 976 01:33:31,055 --> 01:33:33,682 You're very talented, Daniella. 977 01:33:35,435 --> 01:33:41,023 But at some point, you have to choose between life and fiction. 978 01:33:41,524 --> 01:33:45,611 The two are very close, but they never actually touch. 979 01:33:45,778 --> 01:33:49,448 They're two very, very different things. 980 01:34:11,638 --> 01:34:12,679 What? 981 01:34:13,181 --> 01:34:14,681 What's wrong? 982 01:34:28,238 --> 01:34:31,990 - You don't want me? - No, no, no. 983 01:34:32,158 --> 01:34:34,660 Look, it's not like you're corrupting anything here. 984 01:34:34,827 --> 01:34:37,704 I want this. I want you. 985 01:34:40,250 --> 01:34:41,708 I... 986 01:34:47,674 --> 01:34:49,258 You should leave. 987 01:34:56,766 --> 01:35:00,727 Is that what you really want, Clay? 988 01:35:05,233 --> 01:35:07,317 What do you really want? 989 01:35:27,880 --> 01:35:29,464 I'm sorry.